This morning I woke up feeling quite gloomy.To add to it,DH slept in late..and woke up,just in time to gulp breakfast,get dressed and head out for cricket. That just added to my blues.I was beginning to feel positively depressed.
I looked at the time and decided to make the call.To the one person..who I knew,would know where I am coming from!The phone rang..and rang..and then she picked up.. “Hi”..I said,in low voice. “Hey Sweetie,whats up?” came her voice,full of cheery sunshine. Thats all I needed…”blah blah blah…”,I started and she listened..despite the early hour-it was just 7.30am in India. I talked some more and she listened some more..giving me her thoughts..and just like that,I could feel the blues melting away.She had to hang up for 10 minutes,to leave home.By the time,she called back,I was feeling much better.
There is something about talking to your BFF and offloading on her…there is no guilt,despite the hour..there is no fear of being judged..no worries about sharing even your darkest thoughts..I am soo glad I have her in my life.
Miss you darling..thanks for being there,always!muaah!

Remember how I told you,we planned to stay in and watch movies..well thats exactly what we were planning to do..till DH’s phone rang on 31st morning.I was flat out on the couch..yes,I was still sick.DH was making Maggi for everyone.So,anyway his phone rang and a bunch of his friends had decided to meet up,drink some,order in food and ring in the new year together..I asked DH to go ahead..take Aadya too,if he wanted(which I was 110% sure-he wouldn’t-LOL!!)..and I could stay in-sleep and/or watch my precious movies..may be I could even get some more chick-flicks..
Hmmph..no.that didn’t happen.DH gave me two choices-either he calls up and cancels OR we all go together..”Its take-out,baby..you don’t have to cook”…yup,those were the golden words,I needed to hear..I agreed to go.I still spent the rest of the day on the couch..till the Martha in me,awoke.How could I go to a party,without something home-made?Not just a party..a party at DH’s friend’s place!!
So,quickly a chocolate cake was baked and frosted with dark chocolate ganache..and 2011 was written on it with rainbow sprinkles..:) And off we went to the party.
Its was a nice gathering..with friends old and new..and kids ranging from 1.0 to 5.5 years..a good time was had by all and we rang in the new year with our dinner plates in our hands.Ofcourse,that led to much ribbing about how we would spend the new year eating..:D
After dinner followed sparklers and desserts. Sparklers is like Ms.Aadya’s MOST FAVORITE Thing in the whole wide world! Dessert was-Icecream and my chocolate cake..:)
Ohh and it goes without saying that we slept in most of the next day..it used to irk my parents no end that we spent the new years day sleeping..but..someone has to keep up with traditions..isn’t it?:P
I have the 2010 year post in the drafts and so is my thoughts and wishes for 2011..will get around to posting it soon..hopefully:)

yes..yes..I am:)
It seems like forever since I blogged.The last month passed so quickly.My sister was here..and I think I was on a month long break from the world..virtually..and telephonically!
She left yesterday and now,I am just beginning to re-connect..still don’t have the enthu for FB and stuff.. will probably call friends tomorrow..but,the blog needs updating.I need to feel like me,first!
The last month was full of happy times-tiffs-happy times.My cousin,came to visit too and we made him extend his trip from 2 days to a week-basically that meant-unending shopping trips,trips to the city.Even pickups were exciting.We would all get in the car to go pick up DH or Aadya!
This was also the month of our Anniversary. We completed 7 years of married life and in keeping up with the tradition of the last 7 years..fought in the week preceding the anniversary..so much so..that I wanted to go and return the perfume,I got DH!I am glad I didn’t,in the end..because he surprised me with a beautiful pendant and earrings!!
The last two days,before my sister left were sad..sad because,Aadya was crying a lot.She didnt want her Masi to go or she wanted her to take her along.It was heart-breaking.She cried before going to the airport too..on the way to the airport,she was crying softly.It broke my heart into a thousand pieces.Its one thing screaming and crying and throwing a tantrum..but the soft crying,where you can’t stop your tears..:( It made me realise,that unknowingly,I have passed on my weakest trait to my daughter..She is so emotional..I hope she doesn’t end up like..a crying wreck,everytime,she has to say goodbye!DH was so mad ..he told me I need to toughen her up!At that point..all I wanted to do was punch his face and walk away with my crying baby!I hated my sister for visiting and then leaving!!LOL! yeah I am crazy that way.
But I guess the man felt bad later and has been extra sweet to Aadya since then.I am hoping my angry look scared/guilt-tripped him! Lol!
Moving on,Christmas was really nice this year..Ms.Aadya got tonnes of presents..what with her masi being around too..color pencils,stamps,craft kits,a musical keyboard with a microphone,activity books.She didn’t stop smiling all day! That was the brightest I had seen her.She had been sick since the monday before Christmas..and was really dull.
Speaking of sickness..the viral is back in Aadyaland..and both Aadya and I are sick..she is still running low grade fevers and I am all the time hacking like an old lady..that or shivering under the blankets.Yes,we are still using the blankets.It is SUPPOSED to be SUMMER in the southern hemisphere..but,no such luck this time..nah-ah..The days are cold and the nights are colder!!!Somedays are sunny and cold..so much for summer!!!
I am still waiting for a warm day to sit out in the sun,sipping,a cool watermelon chiller!!aah..when will that day come???
3 more days before the year ends…what are your plans for ringing the new year in?? As for me..I think we’ll just stay in..we found an awesome deal on a home theatre system and have been ODing on Blu-ray Dvds,since then!! So,I am guessing,we’ll stay in-bake a cake,pop some corn and get COMFY on the couch!
Please feel free to share your plans..I shall liv vicariously through you:P

Do you ever feel that way??
Well,thats exactly how I feel right now.Its nice to have my sister around..we chat all day long..sometimes,I am too tired to even talk to my dad..thats a first.
I was the designated chatterbox of the family..now I feel,I am not used to talking anymore..or may be I am just getting old.heck!I’ll be 31 soon.
or may be I am just tired..endless shopping trips,long walks,cooking sessions,late-nights,early mornings..all add up to it..na?
do you ever feel this way-too tired to talk/react??too tired to hear someone else talk?what do you do then?too tired to even type?LOL..well,do you?

We went for the dating U/S yesterday-Dec 3rd.Till then,the dr and I thought,I was about 8 weeks,along. But,the U/S tech gave us a big surprise.
As of yesterday,Dec 3rd-I am 5w4days pregnant. I am a little apprehensive again..a little sad too,for waiting longer,to get past the 12week mark.I just hope,everything goes,well.
Another blood test tomorrow,to check the toxoplasmosis level.

Its been so long since I wrote anything about Ms.Aadya. As the few readers of this blog know,she started going to the daycare,since November first week.The first two days were really cool.She went in,hugged her carer and waved me off.

But,from the second week onward,started her tears.She would wake up crying each morning ,saying I don’t want to go to the daycare.The day I said,we were not going,she would cheer up..but the day,she had to go,she wouldn’t stop crying.She whined all the way to the center and once we got there she would cling to me for life.

Finally,I asked one of the carers in her room,how she was and if they noticed anything worrying,because I was really concerned.They told me she generally had a great day and was having some problem waiting for her turn and sometimes that made other kids upset,specially,when they had a turn at the computer.

Aadya was hearing all this.That evening,I asked her,if she played at the computer and she answered angrily, “I don’t want to play at the computer anymore”..I was shocked,I really didn’t expect her to understand that she was the one bothering the other kids and react that way.I asked her again,later,she said, “But,I want to everyone to play with me..” I explained to her that its OK to play by yourself sometimes..and so,when its computer time,everyone gets to play by themselves.So far,its worked…and I am so glad,she is getting adjusted.(knock on the wood)And,I am amazed by her understanding.I really  didn’t expect her 3 year old mind to accept that logic.

She is trying out new foods at the daycare and not always enjoying ,but atleast she is trying.And boy!she is picking up so many new words-good and bad! The funniest was,when she came home and told me, “Mommy,R is not my friend anymore”.. “Why,baby?” I asked her.. “Because,she cancelled by Christmas!!!” It took every last ounce of my willpower to not laugh.Some of the not so nice words she picked up are:  Ugly,funny,yucky poo poo..(why God,Why?)

Some of the nice things she picked up are: Mommy,you are being rude to me(when I yell at her)

Mommy,no thanks,I don’t feel like doing this..

and my favoriteeeeeeeeeeeeee…is ofcourse-“Mommy/papa,do you love me?Are you happy to have me?”

And “Let me think,what should we do/eat/wear??” “I think we should do/wear/eat this”

“I reallyyyyy reallyyy like this.Can I please,please have this?”

and.. “I really missed you so much!I was so happy ki tum mujhe lene aayi!”

My little girl is growing up.So many kids in her class are turning four and everyday we have so many pretend parties ..with playdough cakes and paintings turned into gifts.Oh,speaking of paintings,she comes home everyday with atleast 2 paintings for me. She said to me one day,  “Mommy,I really miss you at the daycare”..So,I told her to draw me a picture.  “But,R says,I  can’t draw pictures,I can only draw lines.” I told her,I love those lines..and since then,everyday,she comes home with atleast 2 pictures for me…God!I love her soo much!

First day of the last month-wowwwwww!!The end of the year is almost here!
Happy December people:)
This is a special month,coz its the month of our anniversary and also,the general holiday spirit that makes it special!
Here’s pic of our christmas tree two years back:

Last night,at the doctor’s office,we got the blood work back.
She said all the levels are normal.She assured us not to worry about the progesterone because HCG is increasing,as it should.
Thyroid levels were lower so,she increased the dosage.
But,VitD levels are still very low and there was a low level of Toxoplasmosis.may be I picked it from the garden..damn!
And WBC count was quite high..so,now I am on antibiotics-thrice a day and VitD thrice a day.
Stay Safe,Diego!

I am so scared this time.I dunno why..I am happy and excited but I keep praying silently,”Please God!Let everything go smoothly.Please let this baby be fine”.
I hope it’s just normal maternal anxiety.I am worried if something goes otherwise,how will I explain to Aadya.I find myself wishing I had waited before telling her.
The last 2 weeks my boobs have been very sore ,I couldn’t even bear to be hugged..when they are not,I find myself checking..if they still are.Everytime I go to the toilet..I am worried and holding my breath. I guess I am worried because my progesterone levels were low last time..and I don’t know what they are this time.We have a dr.appointment later tonight..and I hope all the blood work has come back normal.
Last time when I went for the U/S,I had no idea what to expect..this time,I know what to expect and it has me worried if everything will be as expected. I can’t wait for the 3rd of December any longer..
I can’t wait to be safely past the 12week mark..
On the other hand,I also get a very happy feeling that this is meant to be..time is just right..it has to go well…but the very next minute..I chide myself about being too hopeful..
sigh…