15 Marbles

Moments.Musings.Memories. ❤️Gathering little marbles from ordinary days and keeping them for our memory jar. ❤️

  • I love cooking. And M.O.S.T. things I cook turn out delicious.

    There. I said it. 🙃

    When I first started blogging, I shared recipes too. Part of the reason was that I wanted to record my mum’s recipes and make them last forever.

    There was just one problem.

    I am an intuitive cook.

    Measuring ingredients is tedious. Watching the clock is tedious. Stopping midway through cooking to remember exactly how much of something I just threw into the pot? Very tedious.

    A dash of this. A splash of that. Taste. Add something else. Taste again.

    That’s how I cook.

    And that is why I share so few recipes. When I have to measure and document everything, it takes me twice as long to cook and somehow makes the whole thing less fun.

    For me, at least!

    I’m looking for a solution. Maybe talk-to-text while I cook?

    “Adding a dash of this… splash of that… no idea how much that was…” 😂

    Watch this space.

    Ms A helped me make modaks over the weekend and I showed her one of the little hacks I generally use.

    She told me that one day some millennial mum will probably share the same hack for making perfect modak petals one day and she’ll stumble across it.

    I told her, “Remember, you saw it here first!”

    Here being our kitchen. 😃

    But I digress. As always.

    Food blogger I am not.

    Food hacker? I am. Or at least I try to be.

    In my quest to become an awesome cook like my mum, in my motivation to cook my family’s favourite things, and in my desire to feed them healthy, home-cooked meals, I’ve found my own way of cooking.

    It needs to be quick. Nutritious. Low effort enough to account for my time and energy levels.

    And preferably delicious.

    And when they go back for seconds, or I hear the spoon scraping the bottom of the pot, or someone tells me, “It’s perfect” – even when, in my head, it isn’t quite perfect…

    That makes it all worthwhile.

  • I am on leave today and have the music going, candles burning, some granola in the oven and, as I potter around my messy kitchen, I have come to a realisation.

    I don’t like working from home.

    Yes! I am the odd one!

    My home is my sanctuary and I want it to be the place where I relax, not where I carry the stress of deadlines and anything else work-related.

    At the same time, work is my escape from home. You know, the place where I drink my coffee hot without getting distracted… coffee that someone else made for me.

    Work is where I get to dress up and be just me. Not the mum, not the wife. Just me!

    When I first started working and the kids were younger, one of my favourite things about going to work was simply talking to adults! 😂 After spending so much of my time in mum mode, work gave me a different kind of space.

    I joke that I have two personalities – the work me and the home me.

    Work me only needs to worry about her work, her food and her own needs. Home me, of course, cannot switch off and makes it her purpose to look after everyone else’s needs too.

    Maybe they are both me, just different versions of me.

    But I digress…

    I don’t enjoy working from home.

    I miss the banter with coworkers. The constant conversations that I then use my earphones to drown out.

    Yes, I know. I have a confusing personality. 😂

    I find myself being more productive and active when I’m in the office than when I’m at home.

    Home is where I want to be creative. Potter around. Cook. Clean (I know – I am shocked too!), read, laze around.

    So, I find myself choosing more office days than most people I know.

    And then, when I feel burnt out or tired, I take time off to relax.

    Well… not really relax.

    Apparently I relax by doing chores and finding things to keep my hands busy. 😂

    Cross-posted on the 15 Marbles blog and Substack, because some thoughts belong in both places.

  • This is not a random picture . It signifies a lot of things – First, my favourite puppy in the whole wide world cuddling with me, makes me happy. Everyday when I come home from work, this is how we sit, snuggled up next to each other.. content in each Other’s company, until he decides

    Just like that

    Reposting an old post for 2017 .. because WordPress showed it to me and reading it made me smile 😊

  • When I started blogging 20 years ago, I was pregnant, lonely in a brand-new city, in a foreign country, and I had so many thoughts to share. About my life, my day, my soon-to-be-born baby.

    My husband, SP, was – and still is – a workaholic, and that left me alone in the house with my thoughts. I was a stay-at-home wife while my people were either in a different time zone or at a more exciting stage of their lives.

    So, I took to blogging. More as journaling, really.

    I kept writing. About the baby, then the toddler, everyday angst and encounters. The baby became a big sister, and then I had a new baby. Suddenly I had the girls’ antics and their bond to write about, along with my recipes and crafts.

    Slowly, social media and sharing photos took over.

    Pictures. Short or long captions. Instant posting and instant gratification. What’s not to like?

    At the same time, I was busy raising little kids, had a travelling spouse and a full-time job.

    My mind became an ever-growing checklist of things to be done. Everyone’s schedules, appointments, activities.

    All of that left very little brain space for me. For the things I enjoyed – crafting, reading and writing.

    As any busy mum or parent would appreciate, I would wait for them to fall asleep so I could doomscroll or binge-watch until far too late at night, then wake up tired and rinse and repeat the cycle.

    The said kids are teenagers now. The spouse is no longer travelling, and life is a little more mundane compared with the last decade or two.

    Of course, anyone with teenagers will know that while they give you stories to hold close in your heart, they are not yours to share.

    And if you’re lucky enough to get a cute photo with the said teens (insert eye rolls), you most likely won’t have permission to share that either.


    Shared with the resident teens’ permission, of course. 🙂

    I have always said, to whoever would care to listen, that I strongly believe my purpose in life was to be a mother. A mother to my two beautiful girls.

    They are my reason for so much of what I do. They were the purpose behind my cooking and crafting, my muse for the blog and my social media posts.

    And not having that material to share anymore suddenly had me at a loss.

    Now, with more time on my hands, I am rediscovering myself and my passions outside of the two who walk on two legs and can break and/or heal my heart in a heartbeat.

    So, I am writing and publishing more.

    I’m reading every chance I get.

    I’m cooking things I (and SP) enjoy, because the kids are old enough to fix their own meals if they don’t want what we’re eating.

    I’m going for walks. Seeing friends when I want to, because nobody’s bedtime is being impacted.

    Most weekends, they tuck me in and keep doing whatever they’re doing – cooking at midnight (yes! I know), playing video games, binge-watching shows… you know, regular teenager stuff.

    Don’t get me wrong – I still enjoy them. Their company, their conversations, and doing things with them. Little coffee dates, walks, family time, 10 pm chats, listening to their music, arguing about things that make sense to them and not to me, and vice versa. Getting their tick of approval when I cook something, or a random text asking me to cook or order something.

    Anyway, I digress.

    What I was trying to say is that for the last two decades, somewhere along the way, I started believing I could only have interesting stories, photos and thoughts to share because I was a mum.

    At the ripe old age of 46, I’ve realised something.

    I still have plenty to write about.

    Because I am me.

    And I have my words.