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I was not going to write this here.. because I was absolutely not going to think about anything bad..but damn it! I can’t stop thinking.. and not even a single good thought is coming to my mind.So,I write.
When I was pregnant,I felt a certain little lump in the left abdominal region.I thought it could be the baby’s foot or something..
After the baby came out,the lump was still there,firm to touch..its getting a little painful to touch. My GP asked me to get an ultrasound done. And I did..first one guy did it,then he called his boss,who did it again.Then they asked me to wait another half an hour and did another scan.
I got back home and he called me up and said,I need to go back in again,the next day..for a day later scan.All I know is that its the kidney region.
I was OK with till the time,I didn’t get the call to go back the next day. Now,I am sore for the scan..and I can’t stop thinking bad things..I am trying to be brave and not be scared..But every time,I look at Babykins,looking at me and smiling,I feel like I am going to start crying.. Every time,I see Babushka..I want to hold her and hug her.. I really hope its something silly… I hope I don’t go crazy till Thursday.. that’s when I see my Dr. and that’s when I get my results.
Can I just ask you to please send me lots and lots of positive vibes?

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22 responses to “I refuse to be scared…”

  1. R's Mom Avatar

    Oh Hugs darling..dont you worry too much….hopefully things will be fine…I will go to the temple and pray for you..promise!

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    1. Suburban Mumma Avatar

      Thanks R’s Mom.. hugs!

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  2. Swaram Avatar
    Swaram

    Hugsss Trish! Loads of them and best wishes and prayers ur way.

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  3. Chatterbox Avatar

    It’s ok to be tensed and scared, but don’t let the fear make you feel low.
    Don’t worry dear…you’ll be just fine.
    {{{hugs}}} and sending tons of ++++++++ vibes your way 😀

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    1. Suburban Mumma Avatar

      Thanks CB,hugs back at ya!

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  4. Bikram Avatar
    Bikram

    Dont worry. It will be fine.. If it was something serious they would not make you wait so lonf… Woukd have called you immediately.

    God is great..

    All the best my wishes your way..

    How are the little one’s doing.

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    1. Suburban Mumma Avatar

      Ohh I don’t know,Vikram.. its Medicare,much like your NHS…so I don’t know…but yes,God is great..:) thanks for the wishes..a post coming up about the little ones.

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  5. Little Fingers Avatar
    Little Fingers

    Hugs my dear, everything is going to be alright..You are just worrying for no reason..Take care and don’t think abt it please..

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    1. Suburban Mumma Avatar

      Hugs back LF..:) I hope its nothing!!

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  6. Nitya Avatar
    Nitya

    Ok. deep deep breaths. Sending prayers, TONS of postive vibes and loads of love your way. And dont worry, its going to be fine. Just fine.

    For heaven’s sake, keep me updated. Please.

    Nitya

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    1. Suburban Mumma Avatar

      *deep breaths* Thanks sweets.. and yes,will keep you updated!

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  7. Ekta Avatar
    Ekta

    Positive vibes, wishes & you’ll be in my prayers….really hope its something silly as u’ve said.

    take care

    love n hugs

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    1. Suburban Mumma Avatar

      Thanks Ekta.. I am just waiting for tomorrow,to get the guess-work out of the way!! love n hugs ur way too!

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  8. Comfy Avatar

    Sending prayers your way. Hope things are normal for you.

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    1. Suburban Mumma Avatar

      Thankss Comfy! how are you doing?

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  9. Tharani Avatar

    Don’t worry. I will keep you in my prayers.. Hugs ..

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    1. Suburban Mumma Avatar

      Thanks Tharani and welcome here:)

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  10. meenamenon Avatar

    Happened to jus see this post! Heres hoping that things ar eall ok and a BIG munna-bhai hug to u……

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    1. Suburban Mumma Avatar

      hiiii Meena.. a big munna bhai hug to u too!

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  11. Priyanka Avatar
    Priyanka

    I will pray for you, everything will be fine. Do post the results as soon as you get them. Don’t worry, Stay Positive, okay?

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    1. Suburban Mumma Avatar

      Thanks for the prayers,Priyanka:)

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