15 Marbles

I wanted to write something for the last so many days.. nothing big- just something little- a few lines, a few words – just something to fill the hole in my stomach..

You know the pit in your stomach when you are trying to hold it together when you are feeling nothing but despair.. despair at not knowing when we will see our families in India again… despair at not knowing when COVID will go away.

The start of winter,onset of another lockdown (Lockdown 4!!) in Melbourne and being unwell just made the hole bigger and bigger and I had to lay low to lick my wounds.

I am not ok, but it’s ok to not be ok. This too shall pass – it always does 🙂 In other news, Ms A turned 14 and the Husband turned another year older and we celebrated with lots of cake.

MsA finally got her teen birthday party with cake and friends and a sleepover. The husband had another birthday in lockdown.

SP and I got the jab! First dose of Pfizer! And since I am actually feeling better after writing this post, I will leave you with a smiling photo of me.. I promise I am smiling behind the mask 😷 I knew it that writing will help 😊

And just like that , it’s the last day of February. February is a special month for me, as it my birth month.

I turned another year older and wiser( atleast I think I am wiser!) and my blog turned another year older. I have been blogging for 14 years now.

As much as I want to blog more regularly, life gets in the way.. and .. yeah..

Anyway, here’s some cake to celebrate the blog and me 😊

I start Uni again tomorrow. I have 4 more subjects and one more year of studying to complete it order to finish this course.

Sometimes I am tempted to shut down the blog but I can’t.. active or dormant, the blog is a big part of me, a big part of who I am today – my identity. So, I will just keep posting sporadically as and when I can.

Looking forward to a fun March,

❤️❤️Trish

The announcements were made around 1PM Friday afternoon and as I heard our Premier announcement the lockdown, my heart just sank.

I understand the logic behind it and am grateful to be at home with my family but I couldn’t help but feel this sense of dread- this sense of helplessness.

My first thought was MsA, MsAn was at home sick, so she was fine. But along with MsA, I had to figure out workforce plan for my team for next week. I took 5 minutes to take some deep breaths , collect myself before logging into planning meetings.

Taking deep breaths really helps when you are feeling overwhelmed or anxious. And getting busy – like jumping in headfirst into your work, pushes the anxiety away- at least that’s what it did for me.

Now, with all that work done,sorted- I have the next 3 days off. 3 days at home – doing nothing but relaxing. All sports have been cancelled. The schools will remain closed on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday.

I hope this circuit breaker lockdown is exactly that- a circuit breaker and things go back to being normal again.

Sending lots of love and strength to all Victorians… we have got this !

❤️❤️❤️ Trish ❤️❤️❤️