15 Marbles

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  • Day 27

    Today started at 5:30 am with a loud clap of thunder.It was so loud,literally felt like someone is trying to break into the house.Aadi woke up scared and ran into our room.
    At 7 am,the skies were so grey,it almost felt like night and it was pouring.I told Aadi that she could stay home,if she liked.And she got so upset.She wanted to go to school,because it was the day of Performing Arts. So,we woke up and got dressed.
    And then,it was just the usual day..
    By school pick-up time,the skies had cleared and the weather had improved.So,we decided to go for a walk before dinner.Nanhi in her pram,Aadi on her scooter and SD and I walking along.I love love love such family times.The last time we took the scooter out,Aadi was bored of riding in the first 5 minutes.Today,we were out for 45-50 minutes and she rode the scooter,for the first 30 minutes or so and then she got tired.By then Nanhi was also tired of sitting in the pram,so we let her walk.They both walked holding SD’s hands .. A sight that made my heart turn into mush…
    Some more mush..
    Aadi was walking/running ahead of Nanhi & SD and Nanhi called out to her,’Aadi..aaja aaja’

    Aadi ran up to the pram to grab her water and picked up Nanhi’s also and gave it to her before drinking her own!

    When Nanhi wanted to walk,SD objected saying,she might want to go on the road.And I told Aadi,’Papa used to say the same thing to you..and he would get mad at me,for making you walk on the road,even though you wanted to.’ And in all seriousness,Aadi told SD,”Papa,Nanna is very cute..look she really enjoys walking,you shouldn’t get angry with mumma or her..She is really cute,Papa.” I told her,Aadi you are cute also..and her response..”yes I know..but she is my little sister and so she is veryyyy cute!”
    erm.. OK..this generation knows no modesty!

    The best part- I remembered to wear my heart-rate monitor and wore my walking workout shoes,that one of the mums at school gave me.And when we finished the walk,I had burned 215 cals and everyone had a great time..win-win!
    Hope you had a nice day too..

  • Mommy guilt..Day 26..

    4 years back when we had first moved to Melbourne,Aadi was a very very poor sleeper.And what was worse was that she took F.O.R.E.V.E.R to fall asleep. SD was working super-long hours,Aadi was super-clingy with me and I was literally lying in bed with her for 2-3 hours at a stretch,only to have her sleep and then wake up within 10 minutes of me slipping out of bed.Add to that equation an impossible neighbor and I was at my wits ends.
    One time I had gone without rest for more than 2 days..the only rest I got was 5-6 hours of sleep each night. I snapped.The neighbor had taken to leaving notes on my door and I couldn’t take it anymore..When Aadi didn’t sleep,I picked her up and came out to the living room..She looked out the window and was scared of the dark.She started crying and I yelled at her.Its very rare that I yell at her when she is crying..I tell her off later and now,we argue..when she is throwing a tantrum..LOL! the joys of having a girl!
    Anyway,she started crying and I yelled and she cried even louder..SD tried to take her away and she refused to go to him..I was ready to snap…SD pried her away from me,she continued screaming..I locked myself in the bathroom for 10 minutes..or may be 5..I don’t know.But when I came out,I was calmer..but she was still crying.I hugged her and we cried some more together..It was one of those moments when you feel so hopeless and helpless that you don’t know what to do with yourself. But it passed..and as soon as I cuddled her,she fell asleep. But I still feel guilty when I remember that night or when she is scared of the dark.
    Anyway fast forward to 5 years later,tonight-Nanhi was so sleepy.She was literally walking into walls.I was trying to rock her to bed,and she kept sliding off my lap.SD tried to pick her up and she thrashed at him.Just sliding on the floor and thrashing and rolling.I picked her up and took her to the back door.I felt guilty,but I pointed out the door-“Do you want to go out there?”..”No”,she said.. “Ok then,go to sleep!”I told her..and surprisingly she just snuggled up and fell asleep and my guilt increased by 10 times. First about not being so patient with Aadi and second about introducing Nanhi to the darkness..:(
    I thought a lot about putting this in words and about publishing these words,but I had to get it off my chest.Please don’t judge me…I am only a mom.My only consolation is that Aadi doesn’t care about the dark anymore..she now knows it gets dark because of the sunset.As for Nanhi,she is a fearless chickie.. I think when I asked her,if she wanted to go out there,she didn’t want to go bye-bye..I think! That and in a couple of years,she won’t remember this,just as Aadi doesn’t anymore..BUT,what about me? I don’t think I’ll ever get over it:(

  • Day 25

    I can’t think of a clever title today. I am still sore from my workout on Friday and today I went into the pool with Nanhi,because SD was playing injured soldiers. He got hit by a fast ball on his shoulder and when he woke up this morning,it was swollen ..I could see the swelling through his T-shirt! He has an X-Ray scheduled tomorrow.
    Oh and I have a bit of a sad news 😦 Ok OK.. I am being dramatic!But,I found my first Grey hair yesterday..and I’ve been so sad:( Just last month,I was talking to my BFF and told her,I was tempted to color my hair,but I decided against it,coz I didn’t need it…and now its come back to bite me in the back!!:(
    I had my assessment with my trainer on Friday and though there is no major weight-loss,I managed to lose the 2 kgs I had put on with Diwali.
    But,I have doubled my timings in most of my physical tests which makes me so happy and proud! Someone was selling an elliptical trainer and I grabbed it,got it home today and we set it up in the living room,so I can workout when the kids are in bed.What I hadn’t accounted for was the little monkey that lives in our house.After the elliptical was set up,I hopped on to try and in less than 10 secs,Nanhi climbed up..she has no fear and she is so light on her feet..I promise I am not saying it just because she is mine. She was so swift as if she has been doing it all her life. I freaked out.SD grabbed her and we shifted the coffee table across to using it like a baby-gate!
    My initial thoughts were to sell it right away..but when I calmed down,I thought against it. I stuffed a sheet across the wheel-it will just mean that extra step for me,when I want to work out,but if it will keep her little fingers safe,its worth it!!
    Anyway..a new week begins tomorrow. Tonight at bedtime,Aadi said to me,”You know what mumma,I am sad its Sunday today. I am very happy when its Friday…” I had to keep a straight face..but my God!! do the Monday Blues really start that early?
    How was your weekend?? Hope you had a good one 🙂

  • Just another crazy day-Day 24!

    WOW!I cannot believe it that I have lasted this long,this time..I am actually looking forward to writing daily blog-posts now.And its heartening to see so many visitors on the blog 🙂 And I would love to hear from more of you..so please take a minute and leave me a comment.

    Today SD was playing cricket so he brought the girls to my work place and then we went to drop him off at his cricket ground.After that,we decided to have a girls’ day out.So we came back to the town center,had lunch and then went to see Santa.I was worried about Nanhi’s reaction but she is coolest 16 mo ever!She walked up to Santa on her own..and had a little chat with him and then refused to leave!!

    With great difficulty I managed to take her away from there..then we went to the library where both the sisters decided that they wanted to take the library home.While I was trying to get them to put the books back on the shelves,my sister called outraged about something my dad said..So there I was directing the girls,trying to be stern,and she was yelling on the phone and I had to ask her to hold the line.I hung up,got the girls to pick 5(Aadi) and 3(Nanhi) books and we left to pick up school snacks etc from Aldi.

    And that is where Ananya decided to throw crocodile-roll tantrums!There she was in her beautiful white dress,rolling on the floor,because I didn’t let her open the packet of Tiny teddies..And just my luck to run into people,I know from work!! First two times,I tried to pick her up,only for her to start thrashing..So the third time,I stood next to her and pretended to laugh and the cheeky monkey did the same thing..forgot about the tantrum. 

    Today,I was thankful that I am person with Mammoth sized patience..LOL! And my kids should be glad that I am their mother.LOL!No seriously..a lesser mortal would’ve lost it!! Heck even I was so close to losing it,today!

    After the crocodile roll tantrums,we came home,put the airconditioner on and feasted on some mini ice-creams.I love those only 100 cals each.And we made Kulfis!Will tell you tomorrow how it turns out!

    Over and out for today..