Hmm..where do I begin?
Let me start at the end..the end of my day.The night,is the most frustrating part of my day.Aadi’s bedtime routine,has me pulling my hair each night.I have tried everything..tried putting her to bed early..bath and massage,reading,quiet time..everything.No matter what I do,she takes her own sweet time to sleep..sometimes more than 1 hour..and with every passing minute my temper keeps rising..and almost every night,I have to scream/smack/blackmail her into sleeping.And every night I hate myself for it.
Starting tomorrow,we start again,to get her to sleep soon and without stress for any of us.As I type this..its 11.15 and I can still hear her talking. For now,I am not even thinking of moving her out of our bed..actually,I am going to poll this. Please take a moment to cast your vote.
Another thing which is on my mind today is a letter from the hospital.My GP had referred me to the Women’s Hospital for specialist consultation.And I waited and waited and suffered all those months..and finally got an appointment after 3 months.I saw the Gynaec,who ordered an U/s and some blood work and asked me to come back after that.The next time,after 2 months-The endocrinologist and the Gyn saw me for 10 minutes each..The Endo ordered another battery of test and asked me to come after a month.The Gyn-well she didn’t even discuss the U/s…only when I asked,she told the results which were abnormal..and all she had to say was,come back in 3 months..and then we’ll see.Today,I got a letter from the Endo,saying that appointment has been postponed to May end-which will be nearly 8 months from the day,I got my referral from the doctor.And now I feel is it really worth it??
When I met the Gyn and endo last time,I came out,feeling so disturbed and scared and very very disappointed.When you go to see a doctor,you expect them to have some answers for you..if they don’t know the answers,they should know of ways to find them,isn’t it?I am so glad,I was meeting Goofy that day,after the doctor visit.I was in a state and meeting and talking to her,really helped me calm down and see things from a different prospective.
And now lastly,mini-rant-Its my birthday on Friday.And I want DH to take the day off.I think special days should be celebrated.I asked him two weeks back and he said YES..I even made an appointment at Aadi’s school.Yes,my baby starts school in April,once a week,for 3 hours.They wanted us to bring the form personally and meet the teacher too.And now he says,he is not sure.For all you know,he might take the day off as well..but what I don’t like is,him not telling me till the last day.That’s how it is always.He just never wants to take off.And even when he does,he just tells me,that morning.What if I have other plans..or want to make some other plans.I don’t want to spend my day along at home.I told him..if he cant take off,he should tell me in advance,so I can plan something else..What something else,he asks.Tuesday is over and he still hasn’t told me anything.I want to make other plans with a friend and now cant till he doesnt give me an answer.And then,when I am soo mad..then he
will do try to do something sweet and annoy me even more. OK rant over.
Oh no wait,one last bit..and that will be the cherry on top..we went to the park today and guess who comes lumbering over..A big black alsatian.All by itself.Aadi and I were resting on the bench..he came running towards us and hid behind the bench.My heart was beating so fast.Aadi was getting fidgety too.I love dogs,but not huge beasts,breathing down my neck,with no owner in sight.some other couple was walking their pups,I asked them,if it was theirs..they said no..and didnt even know,whose dog it was.I spoke softly to Aadi,reassured her ,asked her to walk slowly..The dog got up too and started walking towards us.and then,something caught its eye..a furry white ball..our neighbours Pom..he ran towards it.I gathered Aadi and her toy pram and almost ran home.
How irresponsible is that.?Leaving your pet wild in a place where there are going to be small kids!! Very irresponsible I think..and very scary too!
Hmm..where do I begin?