Just A Random Rant.

Hmm..where do I begin?
Let me start at the end..the end of my day.The night,is the most frustrating part of my day.Aadi’s bedtime routine,has me pulling my hair each night.I have tried everything..tried putting her to bed early..bath and massage,reading,quiet time..everything.No matter what I do,she takes her own sweet time to sleep..sometimes more than 1 hour..and with every passing minute my temper keeps rising..and almost every night,I have to scream/smack/blackmail her into sleeping.And every night I hate myself for it.
Starting tomorrow,we start again,to get her to sleep soon and without stress for any of us.As I type this..its 11.15 and I can still hear her talking. For now,I am not even thinking of moving her out of our bed..actually,I am going to poll this. Please take a moment to cast your vote.
Another thing which is on my mind today is a letter from the hospital.My GP had referred me to the Women’s Hospital for specialist consultation.And I waited and waited and suffered all those months..and finally got an appointment after 3 months.I saw the Gynaec,who ordered an U/s and some blood work and asked me to come back after that.The next time,after 2 months-The endocrinologist and the Gyn saw me for 10 minutes each..The Endo ordered another battery of test and asked me to come after a month.The Gyn-well she didn’t even discuss the U/s…only when I asked,she told the results which were abnormal..and all she had to say was,come back in 3 months..and then we’ll see.Today,I got a letter from the Endo,saying that appointment has been postponed to May end-which will be nearly 8 months from the day,I got my referral from the doctor.And now I feel is it really worth it??
When I met the Gyn and endo last time,I came out,feeling so disturbed and scared and very very disappointed.When you go to see a doctor,you expect them to have some answers for you..if they don’t know the answers,they should know of ways to find them,isn’t it?I am so glad,I was meeting Goofy that day,after the doctor visit.I was in a state and meeting and talking to her,really helped me calm down and see things from a different prospective.
And now lastly,mini-rant-Its my birthday on Friday.And I want DH to take the day off.I think special days should be celebrated.I asked him two weeks back and he said YES..I even made an appointment at Aadi’s school.Yes,my baby starts school in April,once a week,for 3 hours.They wanted us to bring the form personally and meet the teacher too.And now he says,he is not sure.For all you know,he might take the day off as well..but what I don’t like is,him not telling me till the last day.That’s how it is always.He just never wants to take off.And even when he does,he just tells me,that morning.What if I have other plans..or want to make some other plans.I don’t want to spend my day along at home.I told him..if he cant take off,he should tell me in advance,so I can plan something else..What something else,he asks.Tuesday is over and he still hasn’t told me anything.I want to make other plans with a friend and now cant till he doesnt give me an answer.And then,when I am soo mad..then he will do try to do something sweet and annoy me even more. OK rant over.
Oh no wait,one last bit..and that will be the cherry on top..we went to the park today and guess who comes lumbering over..A big black alsatian.All by itself.Aadi and I were resting on the bench..he came running towards us and hid behind the bench.My heart was beating so fast.Aadi was getting fidgety too.I love dogs,but not huge beasts,breathing down my neck,with no owner in sight.some other couple was walking their pups,I asked them,if it was theirs..they said no..and didnt even know,whose dog it was.I spoke softly to Aadi,reassured her ,asked her to walk slowly..The dog got up too and started walking towards us.and then,something caught its eye..a furry white ball..our neighbours Pom..he ran towards it.I gathered Aadi and her toy pram and almost ran home.
How irresponsible is that.?Leaving your pet wild in a place where there are going to be small kids!! Very irresponsible I think..and very scary too!


8 thoughts on “Just A Random Rant.

    1. LOL!! Sita is going to turn into Gita real soon..just got commented on..how I snap..always.Will try getting an appointment with another endo..to begin with..lets see..When do i see u online?


  1. About her sleeping, have you tried tiring her out or cutting down her day time sleep? I used to take mine for walks to tire her out. Bedtime is strictly 2 stories and then time to sleep. It used to be story after story at one time, and then I told her that 2 stories tops – sometimes she makes me re-read the same one – but thats it. Try cutting down her day time naps, if she still has them.

    All the best for your docs appts – it can be really frustrating. It is similar here in the UK..

    That dog’s owners sure are irresponsible. No question about it. Could you not report them? There might be a provision to report such behaviour.

    All the best for your birthday – am sure you will have a lovely time.


    1. Hey Smitha-First off lovely profile pic.
      Now,bedtime- Yes,I take her to the park to run or for a walk.She is mostly tired but fights it.I am fresh in the morning..and can think of ways to tire her..LOL!but at night..I dont have the same sense of humor..and the dillydallying irritates me.Starting today,I am planning going to start the bed time sooner-dinner long walk,bath,snack,story,lights off!Fingers crossed and getting ear-plugs ready!
      The doc’s appointments are frustrating..na..its the same in Canada too..same old crap!I remembr one time it took so much time to get the doc appoint another 6 months wasted in running between..and in india,same day everything done and meds prescribed!!
      Dog-yes,will wait and see if its a one off. and birthday-will keep u guys posted 🙂


  2. Aah! Those endlessly long bad days. You had one, and I can see that. God! Docs that bad here? I am shocked, and I was hoping this place would be nice in that regard. Things to bog us down re, its bad. tell you what, you forget about me, lets meet up next week araam se. So no issues about this week. And I am sure your sweet sweet hubby will have something up his sleeve for the birthday. Don’t you worry!!


    1. Yes..but i am better now.And no..sweetie,its not about u..its his general non-commitment that irritates me. I know work is important..but so is family..thats my whole point.And last year,I decided that I am not going to sit and wait for him at home,for birthdays and anniversary..it just makes me sad.Anyway,we’ll see.:)
      Docs are bad– unless u use private insurance,like Aneela said.


  3. Hey Trish, my son can also keep talking and playing till we do that with him. But switch off lights and don’t respond to his conversations and he is out in next 10 mins. Your DH maybe planning a surprise for you, like he did on Valentine’s day. My DH was showing the same non enthu for my B’day and then he surprised me with a super cute gift. In any case, chill out on your B’day. With him, or without him 🙂


    1. Yes,thats what we try too..but she is persistant.Today DH told me he has to work from home on friday..and cannot take leave,because he wants to save it for when we need it!whatever..I am not thinking abt b’day now..umm actually I am.:P


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