I’m thankful for the unexpected long weekend and the bonus fabulous weather! Yes, we Melbournians rejoice when the days get warmer and getting three hot days in a row is definitely the icing on the cake.
I fell asleep while writing this post last night… So posting it now .. Day 3 will follow soon!
Day One and today I am grateful for a beautiful day filled with sunshine! And I am grateful for these two rays of sunshine that fill our lives ( SP’s & mine) with so much joy and happiness!
I’m also grateful for being able to get through the day without complaining- no whinging about anything;Not reacting to any dramas or anyone’s comments by staying peaceful, has helped me carry my happy mood to the end of the day and the girls are calmer too 🙂 SP walked in the door sometime back to catch us singing aloud with Atif Aslam & dancing around in the kitchen.
It’s been a good day and I’m grateful for that!
I don’t know if its writer’s block or brain-fog.. My mind is full of disconnected thoughts..There are hundreds of blog ideas, craft ideas, random thoughts about life,people and everything in general and yet, when I sit down stretch out on my bed, to write something, I can’t come up with anything. I keep staring at the screen, look at my phone, check my messages, stare at the screen again, check my messages again,exactly 5 seconds later and then finally give up the idea of writing.
For the last few days, I feel like something is missing, like I am forgetting something and I can’t pin-point what it is.I walk out of work, thinking and crossing out lists in my head, trying to figure out what I have forgotten.
I keep replaying conversations back and forth, trying to figure out, what’s making me restless. I think of the words that have bothered me, the tones and hidden meanings and I can’t make sense of everything.I can’t..
So, I have come to the conclusion that what people say is not a reflection of me, its a reflection of them. That try as much as I can, I can’t turn some negatives into positives. That people’s actions and reactions may or may not be because of me. And even if they are, there is not much I can do about it.That I have to learn to be immune to negativity ..So, I have decided to just ….
[Image courtesy : Google images]
And on that note.. I’ve decided to do the Gratitude challenge, where I will post something that I am thankful for EVERY single day..Ok, ok… I will TRY to post every single day 🙂
Keep smiling!
xoxo
Trish
I wasn’t planning to write anything today, but this had to be written, before I got busy and forgot about it.
I almost didn’t apply for my new job because I knew the role was ON-call basis. I was scared about how I would manage the logistics of finding care for both the girls, on the last minute, how I would cope with the spontaneity of it..But, I applied. My friend and her boss all but pushed me to and I did, because I felt so loved and spoiled and to be honest, a little obliged.
The interview was a breeze and I got selected and then started the trainings..I still had a little say in when I wanted to organize training sessions and could pre-plan the girls’ daycare and after school-care arrangements. Now, training is all but finished and regular call-outs have started. In the last 3-4 weeks, I have worked 5-6 days each week and most of the times, it has been a last minute call- the previous night or first thing in the morning. Then, I have rung daycare and asked if I could drop Ms.An , told Ms.A as soon as I got the call that Aunty D will pick her up. D is a friend who runs her own daycare from home and her daughter is one of MsA’s oldest friends and so she loves going there. And every single time, when I get a call, my stomach does a flip-out..thinking how everything will work out.. and even if it does, how will the girls react, will I get there in time.
But, surprisingly, they have been alright. Ms.An is liking ‘school’ as she calls her daycare and has been OK going there even on her ‘day off’. Ms.A automatically grabs a second snack when I tell her that Aunty D is going to pick her up. And when I know that they are well taken care of and are in a safe place, I am relaxed at work. I am quite enjoying the new role and all the things that come with it. A couple of months back, when MsAn was struggling at daycare and I was unhappy, I had made my peace with the fact that a full-time job is not my cup of tea. But the last month has showed me that I can do it and it might work for our family. Sure I am tired and have a whole heap of work to catch up with on the weekend, but we will survive.
I have put in my notice for my weekend job and once that ends, things will ease up a little..but like I said, we’ll survive..we’ll cope and when we can’t, we’ll find ways to cope 🙂
Today Ms.An and I had our first day off in a month and it was the best day ever. We went out for a coffee-date with Batman, stocked up on groceries and then came home , did house work, sang songs, talked..yes! she has real conversations now(that reminds me I NEED to write her birthday post) Like I said, it was the best day EVER.
Back to the grind tomorrow.. but this had to be written, for me to read when I am having a hard day!
Hope you’ve been well..
xx
Trish
