How many times have made a decision and then watched your heart and mind,fight?
I am so excited to meet my family..I haven’t seen my dad in nearly 2 years..but my heart is heavy..I am sad for leaving DH behind.Mind tells me that he is a grown up,well capable of taking care of himself.I have organised for someone to come and cook for him,once a week and he is going to be working most of the time.But,my heart worries,and tells me that he will be alone here for two months.I know I will talk to him,everyday,sometimes,many times,everyday.I know that we will talk more when I am away..but still,it won’t be easy,saying goodbye to him,at the airport.
This time,its harder for me to leave him for two reasons,one of them being,the Star of the blog and our lives.Aadya is very attached to her father.Everyone,feels that she needs me the most,which is true to a great extent..afterall she spends her entire day with me..She has spent very little time away from me,from birth..but he is her comfort person.She looks up to him,when she falls.She looks up to him,when she is hurt.She tells me,when she is sleepy..but she falls asleep when he is on her other side.He is Good Guy of her life-the one who gives her candy at the hint of an oncoming meltdown,unlike the bad momma..He is the one,who listens to her stories,over and over again..ooh-aahing in amazement(In my defence,I hear them all day long)This will be the first time,they are away from each other for such an extended period of time.He is worried that she will forget him(as if!)..but what if,she does?
The second reason is his Diabetes.It worries me…what else can i say..it does.My heart just swings from happy and light to heavy and foreboding..Kya Karu ?:(
Heart said,”Don’t blog tonite”..but mind said,”write what you are thinking..” I did ..:)
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Wish you all a very happy and prosperous Diwali.
This Diwali was quiet dull,despite it being a weekend.DH was gone all day,playing cricket.It was a normal day for us girls.
I gave Aadi a good oil massage,oiled my hair and after baths,we had brunch and got ready to greet some friends who were going to be in the neighbourhood and were stopping by to wish us Diwali.
After they left,we cuddled up on the couch to watch a movie..and soon both of us dozed off.Our heating is not working.The cold room,cozy blanket and full tummies-what else do you expect.We woke up around 6 when DH came home.Then,drew some rangoli,with sidewalk chalk and got ready for Puja.One of our neighbour’s is a single guy.His parents are visiting and they invited us over,for Diwali sweets.
So,we popped over,to see them..ate yummy payasam,came home and cooked,gave Aadya dinner,while our dinner was getting cooked.Then,bedtime..Diwali over.And this year,I didnt take even a single picture,pretty sad na?
Anyway,I hope this Diwali brings some luck and prosperity our way..:) -
Yayyyyyyyyyyy..we are going Nanu ghar!!That’s the thing that I was waiting to share!!Finally..I have the tickets in my inbox!Mamma and Aadi are off to Nanu Ghar!
We are leaving next week..its a very last minute thing..and I am so grateful,that we got the tickets.All’s well..My cousin’s getting married..and hopefully,I will be able to find a guy to get my sister hitched to !
I just got the tickets today morning..and so many plans are forming in my mind-food to be eaten,shopping to be done,pampering myself,places to be..blogger friends to meet..and ofcourse,packing the suitcases.
This will be the first time,I travel with Aadi alone,since she has become so independent,I am little nervous about that.This time,she travels in her own SEAT,ON her own ticket!I hope we reach safely with all our belongings in one piece!
all ye veteran traveller moms of toddlers,tell me,should I take the stroller or leave it here?
I have a 2 hour halt but will arrive and depart from the same terminal.
Do write back,with tips to help me get through this calmly 🙂 -
I had a doctor’s appointment tonight..and DH dropped me off,while he went to drop off a friend who had stopped by for a visit.She lives in the same neighbourhood,but not at walking distance.Anyway,as I walked in the waiting area,I caught the reflection of a girl walking in wearing the same combination that I was wearing..Navy Blue with faded denim.Naturally,I was curious and looked ..and then,the smile didn’t leave my face for the rest of the evening!
BECAUSE…The girl who I thought was smartly dressed,was ME!!! I can’t believe how much of a difference a pair of low heels make …I was wearing a regular full sleeves top with Jeans,with my low heels.Forgot to use accesories as well..Later I asked DH,how I looked and he said,very nice..especially nice tonight.And then,I gave him a big lecture on how he should have said it without me having to ask..
I have so many issues about my body right now.(that took a lot of me,to say it aloud)But,tonite,after catching my reflection in a full length mirror,I am happy..Really,not having a full length mirror,makes it hard to deal with body-image issues.Even if your clothes fit better,still seeing it ,makes it more real!
Oh and when DH dropped my friend,S, off,Aadi decided to pay them a visit and stayed at their place.I was shocked to see DH walk into the walking area alone..so many thoughts came to my mind..all except the obvious,that Aadi is at S’s place.
So,my little girl,played happily with S and her husband,while,we got an interrupted appointment with the doctor.I got pricked again..yet another blood draw.Its been a year since I got detected with hypothyroidism and we are still experimenting with the dosage..But,I know something is off.. I am losing so much hair.I asked the doctor today and he said,its the combination of hypothyroidism and PCOS.And that is also the biggest hindrance in weightloss!That made me a little sad..
But,on my way out,I purposely walked from the side,where the mirror was-that did cheer me up a little,but not too much.
Anyway,
Wish you all a very Happy Diwali !
